I have a very strong emotional attachment to things around me, especially people. They mean the most to me. I hate the feeling of losing someone in my life, but things happen. I am fascinated and intrigued by how an end could affect a person.
Through this project, I decided to take you through a journey of "how to survive a beak-up". You will see an array of paintings with a story for each one, depicting a silly yet surreal thought that you would have in your head while going through break-ups. You might find these thoughts familiar, or not - but we can all laugh at them and tell ourselves that we are stronger than the past."
It has never really ended
50cm x 70cm // oil on canvas
Sometimes relationship ends with a silence death. You were left alone and you were thinking to yourself in one hot summer day, too hot in fact, you can’t even tell whether it was sweats or tears. You heard those annoying seagulls shouting, and that reminded you of him. You thought to yourself - it has never really ended… Or has it?
That's not fair, you said relationship is a two-way street
80cm x 80cm // acrylic on canvas
A relationship needs two people to start, but it only needs one person to end. I understand but I have never want to understand this concept. It is a constant denial.
But I have infinite tenderness for you
Acrylic on canvas, 49cm x 36cm
I believe if you ever loved someone, it doesn’t go away completely, there will forever be a spot you saved for them. A little wound that hurts a bit when you poke.
I don't want to talk to him, first
80cm x 80cm // Acrylic on canvas
At times, I thought to myself, where does it all turn sour? when did he stop wanting to talk to me? Then I stubbornly convince myself - "I don't want to talk to him, first". As if it is a race, a naive race.
Boy, when I left you you were young
This recent project that I have been working on is called "The Hideout". The inspiration comes from a close friend losing his motivation to live, he was pretending things were all okay but deep down, he just wanted to hide and be sad. Through this project, I want to find beauty from decadence, create meaning to sadness and give reason to hide. As time heals and memories nurture the re-growth. I believe all these promote an individual to blossom beautifully in the darkness.
Love is just a habit afterall
This project aims to display the inner problem of lovers. The kind of uncertainty and the lack of confidence are the main theme that I am working around with. I try to capture moments where people are at their weakest, or uncomfortable about the situation.
It can also be seen as how things we experienced change the perception of your current status. Each painting responds to its title. It acts as a hint of things that the sitter experienced and the painting display the moment when you realise what you have been thinking isn’t right. It is a complex influence of both parties in a relationship.
As part of the project, I would also like to bring up the discussion on how females see themselves in a relationship. Although women nowadays know that they can be strong and confident, with the influence of patriarchy ideas and perhaps the way that we were brought up, woman suffer from lack of confidence and uncertainty from a relationship. I see this project as a way of showing how woman see themselves.
I want to tell you a secret
This is a project that I've been currently working on. It is a project about realisation and self-recognition.
I mostly work with people because I find people more interesting and the ability of being sentimental fascinates me. I enjoy the moment when you are alone and starting to aware how things in the past shape you to the now you - as if you are hiding in the woods and discovering the fragments pieces of your memories then putting the puzzle together. My works are about capturing the moment , expressing emotions and visualise this whole experience of looking back to the past in paintings. I mainly use women as the focus of my work as I associate women with foliages and flowers. In some ways, they are more delicate, emotional and sentimental which is something I would like to depict on a painting.